Well, we are in. In the new house. In the new area. In the new life we wanted for ourselves. We have set up house. We have a BBQ. We have children living next door. The stability for my child that I never had. These things feel good.
This post is about work. I seem to have always had an agent. As an actor I have been told where and when to be places. How to look. What to say. And I have to say there are moments where I am like "I don't want to be told what to do anymore EVER!" Yes, my child is a bossy pants. But I have no boss. My husband sure appreciates that I cook, clean and shop for us but he is not the boss of me that's for sure.
I do my taxes, I drink cocktails at 5pm, I fantasize about the pizza delivery boy...these are all things woman do but to not have a boss...well, I am ready to decide for myself on my time, what my art will look like. I no longer have the feeling that something is waiting for me out there. To be bought and sold in terms of demographics. I am no longer selling anything. I am creating. For me.
This post is about work. I seem to have always had an agent. As an actor I have been told where and when to be places. How to look. What to say. And I have to say there are moments where I am like "I don't want to be told what to do anymore EVER!" Yes, my child is a bossy pants. But I have no boss. My husband sure appreciates that I cook, clean and shop for us but he is not the boss of me that's for sure.
I do my taxes, I drink cocktails at 5pm, I fantasize about the pizza delivery boy...these are all things woman do but to not have a boss...well, I am ready to decide for myself on my time, what my art will look like. I no longer have the feeling that something is waiting for me out there. To be bought and sold in terms of demographics. I am no longer selling anything. I am creating. For me.
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